Smile & be Happy!

i don't understand seriously

how moods changes over a short period of time

problems, thoughts, healths, feelings

all this could be factors

but, i cant find a reasonable excuse

for the sudden and immediate change

i love someone,

i seriously do.

i want that someone to always be happy

to always be fine and well

also to always feel great and joyful

cause companionship is the best thing in life

i have always been telling

that i will be here,

i will lend a listening ear

also a shoulder to lean on

whatever that is stressing you,

in the cruel world out there.

please note that i will never leave

it might just sound like empty words

but, it comes from deep inside

believe me, trust me, have faith in me

RESULTS:

beep test: level 7.5 ( previously 7)

jump test: 51- 12 = 39

sit and reach: 48 (A)

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now, i have something with great contentment to blog about. i soo love my family
today. they are just great people.they are being nice to me. they made me laugh, feel
good about myself. mum was nice. she cooked my favourite dessert specially for me.
dad was being soo concerned too. he asked about my well being. and suprisingly about how i have been doing, with my soccer stuffs and all. i would agree to him that
badminton was a better choice. but i have my reasons and he said he respected that. i
hope you would understand dad. if only i could get support from both you and mum
for what im getting myself into now, it's more than enough for me to be grateful
and appreciative of. so, out of sincerity. i actually did something quite lame for them.
but it's the thought that counts right. hmm, i believe putting effort is the main thing.

it was indeed abit scary at the moment when i realised my dad was listening to our
conversation on the phone. haha. i guess he didn't hear the whole thing so don't
worry. and lets just drop it. Shafiq helped out with the fields and hopefully those he
recommended would be available for trainings. it's been long since we wanted field
trainings. sick of those physicals which are less than beneficial i would say. i needed
more ball works for goodness sake. i am hoping so badly for some fields to turn up
and make themselves available. haha.

Labels: Sunday would be better with you around

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i'm not strong enough

to handle every single issue

that happened to me today

be it major or minor

thus, it caused me to weep again

it starts from the morning,

afternoon .

even at night.

not getting the affection from someone i love

the undesirable truth that was revealed

and losing the item i treasure most

that was not the end of it.

family members being a bitch

adding on to my grief

what luck do i have, none :(

my intentions are misinterpreted

my heart's being torn apart

deep inside it really hurts, seriously

if only i were to tell you the truth mum

i just needed the right time

please try to understand this daughter

i'm different and i need your affection

i just needed support and affection from those i love

is that too much for me to ask for

why are everyone backing out from me

worst still, at the same time

and i seriously need you back,
your original self
cause i'm lost without you
IMY!

Labels: i just needed a smile from you to make my day

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weirdly, i have been feeling very very sleepy after break out 2.

couldn't help it but to doze off awhile before faci enters the class

had a short nap again while waiting for training to start

i couldn't imagine being more tired and sleepy as i was today.

how silly i was,

thinking that a slight action i made

can actually change decisions.

i was hoping for it though,

but unfortunately it didnt happen

thus, training was spent in a sleepy mode

cause it wasn't that intensive

now, going side track abit

i'm actually feeling very very worried

i worry for the

future,

my friends,

my family,

my health,

my life,

the team,

etc.

i couldn't help myself but to think of it

and it makes me feel miserable at times.

someone please tell me the truth

i don't want it to be secreted from me nomore

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it crossed my mind,

i can't help it

a small move and action at a time

i'm just scared that one day

it might pile up

to the big thing that i feared

never expected a sweet act from you. its very much appreciated

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i have no answers to the question marks,

we both have in our heads dear.

and i don't wish to find the answers

i believe leaving it on its natural way

is so much better

And i'm glad i have you,

a person who makes me feel

soo much better at the end of the day

whenever i thought the day's

going to end real bad.

my dear,

when the day comes

lets just cherished

all the times we spent together

both happily and vice versa

cause whatever you may think or say

i will still utter these words

" I LOVE YOU "

Labels: nothing makes life sweeter than having you

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guys match vs. NYP

was so devastating to watch

most were off form

and some didnt perform like

we expected them to be

but whatever it is,

good job guys

you all deserved a clap

for the effort and not giving up

FINAL SCORE: 1-2

i guess i'm just missing TPMs now

everyone's busy and we hardly meet up

how i wish we were back to the old days

when school was our daily routine

spending time together each day.

i miss the past

now, they are just memories

hope to see you girls any sooner.

Labels: you made a difference in me

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I could cope with training today

even though i couldn't reach the target of 9 mins for 1.5 km.

my timing was 10mins. but i thought it was a great start.

i believe i could do better the next time.

training was rather competitive today.

but it was fun and challenging.

but i was kind of dissapointed.

having to hear some harsh words from a person whom

i thought has great interest in the IG.

knowing that she actually has a bad thought

which was concealed all this while.

i guess these people has just made

themselves into uninterested lads.

and so be it, i will them be.

no point enforcing something into them

which might just end up being disregard.

let them decide for their own

and we wil see what happen next.

maybe sacrifices are sometimes not worth to be.

i was wondering, if the words are not meant for me. then for whom?

Labels: so it went good, then bad, then good again..

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how great was it,

to be prepared mentally for training

but forgotten to bring along the training attire

having to rush and do your RJ

but found out that the attire was never in the bag

how ridiculous was it,

tracks shoes and towels are all set

but the important kit was left behind

at the end of it,

having to watch but not to train

it is a wasted friendship, just like what a friend said

months of knowing each other, all destroyed

due to immaturedness and having to do things hastily.

but things happened, and time can't be rewind

thus, i will just let life flow by itself

just like how god has planned it all

Labels: god plans it all

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after so long,

i teared again

having to read those words

that makes me scared

of what might happen next

i soo don't wanna that to happen

but, i just hope you could stop thinking

and mentioning

about those things again

Labels: only be a temporary, pls

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Ok before i forgot, just wanted to post about this

so that i wont forget this special day

Republic poly organized an event called "Sandbox"

at Tanjong beach in sentosa.

And we took part in a beach competition there.

out of hardwork and determination,

we were the champions and we won a NIKE bag

how great was that.

here's the photo of me and the bag :)

and the team which consists of soccer girls and guys

i stole this picture from shasha. hee :)

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Its kind of funny and even enjoyable

to see someone trying to impress us

showing of their special skills and anything that they can do

having to make themselves into a point of attraction

it can be honourable at times

but to think of it again,

it can be irritating and suffocating to the extent

life can end up being miserable if this carries on

i believe feelings can't be forced or controlled

thus, whatever it is

i'll just leave it for time to decide

After work, I had Mee bakso with a special friend of mine

thanks darling for accompanying me.

just to see those chillies spilled over

and having to stain my own shirt.

how upsetting was it.

but then again, u made my day.

thanks once again

and sorry if my words are hurting

Labels: Dreams are just games at night

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Now, my dad's mad with me

mad over my behavior

i guess i really went too far this time

i'm sorry dad

please don't take back my bits of freedom

i don't wanna have an early curfew again

And tomorrow is the beach soccer tingy at Sandbox

i soo wanna go and play

and not to dissappoint the team. :(

guess i'm too tired now.

need lotsa rest.

Labels: god help me please

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i knew right at the start its just wasn't my day,

and it certainly wasn't

one after another

i don't feel good

but YOU made my day at the end of it

still, i'm going to sleep tonight

with a very very weak body

Mr. Fever is coming. :(

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Macdonald breakfast was great this morning. and i had fun playing with my hotcakes. i kind of created a bear out of it. but someone claims it doesnt look like a bear at all. but nevermind. one thing thats lacking is the hashbrown. cause it jumps out from the tray while i was carrying it to our table. how sad. it doesn't want to go into my mouth and get digested.

First day of school was just a normal routine. as usual culture faci talks alot and it gets annoying sometimes. i just miss holidays. and lucky its monday when theres no training or any other commitment.

So after school we went to eat at Banquet and then headed home. intended to send her home but the bus broke down halfway. very much devasting but yah, woodlands isnt that big and she suggested that we walk. Haha. drop by her home, intending just to take the PSP charger. but ended up doing my rj there and slacking awhile instead. And i left that house at 10.

Just get well soon okay, cause i soo don't like to see you sick. maybe its really true that every word is a doa cause i'm feeling a bit weak now. i guess i have very low immunity system. haha. just get well and i will. :)

TAke cAre!
it was a normal yet fun day

One thing, i broke my sister's rubiks cube after getting so hooked and frustrated with it.

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ok. so today was fun. quality time was spent.

its the first time i set my foot on Sembawang Park

it's the last day of holiday and we spent it to relax ourselves.

i so love the breeze and the calmness, as well as the sight.

PLUS the person i'm with today

i think i wanna go there again the next time i feel like slacking :)

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i might seem alright

i might look like im getting over it

but deep inside,

i don't think i am okay :(

Labels: i have no idea

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I hate it

Having to waste lots of tears

Eventhough i know it's nothing major

For me to cry about

I tried to laugh and cheered up

But, it doesnt work

I cant control it

And i feel weak

I just hate it

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It's miserable to think of it,

Of what happened just now

"Tak setanding tak bermakna, tak akan jadi sehebat dorang"

I know that, but i believe it requires

Whole lot of damn hard work

"Angan2 besar tapi pemalas"

Someone ask me out for a run

And i can feel pounds of weight on my hips

hahaha! i either have to give in or sacrifice more

but i think i cant take it already

The trainings and

Plus the people down there.

Labels: still in thoughts

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When you make new friends, you forgot the old ones.
Is this always true? I think it is, to a certain extent.
Cause of the amount of time we spent together.
Maybe it is a retribution.
Cause they might feel i have forgotten about them before
And now, i feel the same way too
But yah, that's when new friends comes in
At least there is still a source to mix around with

Someone told me,
I took so much trouble to care for others feelings,
And i end up not taking care of my own feelings.
Thinking back, how dumb can i be.
haha, maybe i am dumb in a way.

If only I could get hugs everyday...

Labels: caring, retribution

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It's 2008 now,
Wow, i know that's fast
I will miss 2007 so very the much
Its a year full of ups and downs
I have hardly achieved anything last year,
That's why it's quite saddening that 2007 has left.
On the other hand, i should look forward to having a great year ahead
Yeah, i wish..

So basically, i have recovered from back injury,
But not fully i guess
Cause there's still bits and pieces of pain
i just wish it will go away
cause if it doesnt,
i will miss lots of trainings

We went to Farrah's chalet on tuesday
In conjuction of her birthday
So the people who went was,
Shasha, Faridah, Irna, Ili, Weisi and Yiwen

Nothing great but it was rather a decent time spent
How i wish i could sleep a little longer
With your hugs, it feels so comfortable. :)

Now talk about training sessions with the national team
it wasn't dragy and tough
Only that i'm not used to the people there.
All i need is time, to show what i'm worth

i seriously need to go and get some rest now,
Cause there's training in school tomorrow morning
And i'm getting sick of it actually.
............

Labels: too much to handle

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