Smile & be Happy!

Tuesday, February 26, 2008 10:25 PM

i was reluctant

yes, i do.

but i couldnt stop now

cause I'm in a situation

whereby i'm really in need.

every now and then,

i emphasized to myself

my only motive and objective

and i made myself feel better

by burying deep,

all the bad feelings.

I'm in hope of a new job soon

so that i could change my ways

cause to be telling the truth,

i'm currently not feeling good too.

Labels: till when

Signing off, YATT!

Monday, February 25, 2008 11:04 PM

I can’t deny there’s disappointment in me

But yet again, I have to make up my mind

It’s either now or never.

I will have to put aside some factors,

Which will definitely distract me.

Different individuals have various living situations

And they faced different problems in life.

I can’t be comparing myself to them

I have to decide for my own

Cause they might have different objectives.

I guess I will just have to give it a try

To try and fit in

Cause I don’t want to be the one losing it again

Labels: repetition

Signing off, YATT!

Sunday, February 24, 2008 10:09 PM

self-centered; egoistic; mercenary

how worst can a person be.

i don't know how else to feel

what else to think.

and what else to do

but still, letting it out makes me feel better

thank you.

Labels: i was selfish

Signing off, YATT!

Friday, February 22, 2008 10:46 PM

Happy 18th Birthday Amal!

i'm sorry i couldn't make it to spend the day on your legal age birthday.

But whatever it is, i hope you had a great time with them. And lets meet

up one day so that i could make it up to it ok. Last but not least, always be

happy and stress-free. wee. :)

Labels: Happy Birthday

Signing off, YATT!

Tuesday, February 19, 2008 11:15 PM

Happy 19th Birthday Zuladly!

You did too much for me to ask for more. thus, i would complain no more.

Labels: unexpectedly suprising

Signing off, YATT!

Monday, February 18, 2008 11:27 PM

I just read a post from my friend's blog earlier.

I'm reprehensible,

to see her expressing her gratitudes

towards her parents who are forever loving

conveying her love with the most significant gesture

to her parents ,

who never whine about her appaling behaviour.

i know,

God allocates different sets of parents to different people

But i'm just so shameful that i blogged

about the most unpleasant topic of my parents.

where goes my responsibilty,

to uphold their pride and dignity

in silence, i brought them down.

I'm sorry. That's all i could say.

Labels: let's work this out together

Signing off, YATT!

Sunday, February 17, 2008 11:06 PM

when you failed to plan,

you started venting your anger,

unfortunately, on me.

i don't understand

who am i to you?

are you ever cherished having me

i feel so unwanted

there's flaws in everything i do

am i always bad in your eyes?

am i the one who should try to understand you?

or isit you, who should give it a shot to understand me?

i miss the tranquility i once had in the house

now, i fear being in my own home

whatever i do, it's never enough for you

i know your problems,

but dont blame me for it.

you failed to fulfil your own responsibilty

it was never my fault.

so now what?

i have to bear my own needs?

i have to provide to my own necessities

and i have to support myself

i was so close to hating you for not planning well and causing this trouble

Labels: back to square one

Signing off, YATT!

1:48 AM

lonely? not anymore

i believe i can put faith in you

to always be there

and i'm craving for Prata ice-cream at this very night. how weird.

Labels: ~prata ice cream~

Signing off, YATT!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008 11:54 PM

Why am i doing this?

Lying to myself.

Trying too hard.

Or maybe not hard enough,

I know I'm capable of doing it.

I need to prove to myself

No more excuses,

I just need to do it right the next time.

i'm scared of losing you :(

Labels: truly lies

Signing off, YATT!

Monday, February 11, 2008 11:48 PM

I'm getting the virus

FEVER.

BLOCKED NOSE.

BODY ACHES.

arggghh!

Labels: i want to be fit

Signing off, YATT!

1:24 AM

Cintaku tk berdusta

Tk mengenal ingkar

Tk kenal nestapa

Cinta ku hanya indah

Hanya bahagia

Untuk selamanya

Apa yang ku rasa kan ini

Persembahan utk dirimu

Kau Dengarkan , kasihku

Mencintaimu, tk mengenal waktu

Tk mengenal puitis

Hanya tulusnya hati

Mencintaimu tk mengenal ragu

Keyakinan hati hanya utk dirimu

Selalu…

Cintaku tk berdusta

Tk mengenal ingkar

Tk kenal nestapa

Tk ada seribu janji

Hanya bahagia utk selamanya

Labels: puisi lagu

Signing off, YATT!

Thursday, February 7, 2008 11:34 PM

i'm pampered by your sweet words

and down i go with even a slight harsh one

im sorry for being too weak

and potraying the ugly side of me

IMY soo much!

Labels: down i go

Signing off, YATT!

Monday, February 4, 2008 11:51 PM

i was wondering

when is the last time i actually made decisions,

based on my own needs,wants and will

not putting anyone in front of me

not making them a factor of my decisions

i stated in my earlier post,

that decisions are important assessments to make

i sincerely agree to that

and i started to reflect all the important decisions

i ever made in life

excluding those which includes...

deciding on what to eat,

what to wear,

what to say.

and i realised,

it had been long since

i made a decision which i'm contented with

meaning a decision made

full of satisfaction

and no regrets

i'm not blaming anyone else

but just myself

i might be silly at times

or maybe most of the time

but i guess i will try

not to be silly anymore

and i ended this post with a insignificant laughter to myself

Labels: blame yourself and not the others

Signing off, YATT!

Sunday, February 3, 2008 7:42 PM

things seems to get out of place

no one simply look like they are taking any actions

i'm lost, not knowing what to do

also in search of the slight glimpse of light

the light of hope for the better

why can't things get back to place

why can't they go just right as planned

decisions are important assessments to make

once wrong, all ruined

it can just result to regrets, fears and even discouragement

i'm in need of a better future,

which requires more than just hope and dreams...

Labels: sunday boredom

Signing off, YATT!