Wednesday, March 26, 2008 11:18 PM
There's moment when i feel it again, the feelings i have alwaysfeared. Perhaps it's really me, someone who one gets tired off. If it is, I beg your forgiveness, to have caused this hitch. I couldn'tget the story, lost trying to find the roots from which it all started.It might not be easy but i just needed a chance to make it right this time. I went home tonight not knowing the steps to carve a smile. Instances like these keeps me thinking. If i really am a disaster, I apologise even having to appear. I'm trying hard. Real hard. Perchance, I'm just incapable that made me worthless. I admit i get affected deeply this time.Setiaku menyayangi,tiada akan ku kesaliWalau kian hanya berteman,namun terdapat seribu kenanganBagiku ia terlalu indah,setiap detik bersamaRela akhirnya ku terluka,dari ku hidup tanpa mengenal cintamu.Labels: LOST
Sunday, March 23, 2008 11:09 PM
At the end of the day,Im happyon the other hand,exhausted. Thanks for the day. :)Labels: thanks
Saturday, March 22, 2008 10:14 PM
the reason i wanted to travel all the wayis not because i had something in mindbut all i ever wanted was to spend my time with youi blame myself for being incapableof making full use of the time we hadto catch up on what we have missed i couldnt express how much i missed youi wanna hold you like i could never do it againi wanna look at you like as if i'm gone the next dayyou made my dayyou carved every smile on meyou create a special feeling in my heartall i could hope is just that,i wouldn't turn out to be a disaster in your life.all i want is you to be happy. Labels: the reasons
12:25 AM
When YOU are not here,
pieces of my heart are missing YOU.
Labels: misses
Thursday, March 20, 2008 4:23 PM
things happen for a reasoni guess its really how things are planned to be in this worldactions has consequencesand now its time for me to face itsometimes i feel its very patheticand i feel that i'm inadequateto be getting what i'm getting now; the presence of a good friendwho is always therenow, i have caused troubleand its all up to us to mend itno matter what the other folks saysi still blame myself to have cause all theseso i believe it takes timejust one thing i hope,that we will not have to start all over again.Labels: hemming work
Monday, March 17, 2008 11:52 PM
YES!
it's the day i'm waiting for.
the last of work at that
f**king irritating, boring and frustrating factory
Glad that we made it thus far.
to endure all those frustrating days.
now it's time to enjoy the holiday
and the hard-earned cash
it's budget planning time!
WEE!Labels: It's Over
Sunday, March 9, 2008 8:30 PM
i had adidas challenge last saturday
which is yesterday infact.
we, the "mighty gays" are in group A.
together with
-Faber
-Clement Knights
-EB sports A
-Kick balls
the results came out ,
and we were the third on the table,
behind Clement Knights and EB sports
i knew we shouldn't have lose to Faber.
Or even drew with kick balls.
they are mistakes that shouldn't be repeated.
Fuck, i wasted 13 bucks on this.
but stil it was worth
the experience, the fun and excitement
last but not least the jersey that we received
which i think is pretty nice.
End of the day :)
i don't understand and i don't like it
that she blames me for everything.
the cold war with dad,
the distant i had with siblings.
and the stress she's coping with.
is it really my fault anyway?
Labels: adidas challenge
Thursday, March 6, 2008 10:25 PM
i brought home quite a variety of thoughts todaybeing uncertain, regretfulness, unappreciativei blame myself for everythingi kind of lose the griplose every single thing i might have to be proud of.frustrations of not doing things wellnot being able to keep it as neat as it shouldnow everythings going messy in my mindam I over reacting or what?i have no idea. but i guess, this feeling inside me,it occurs the very first timei should say it was conquered by embarrassment.however, after blogging about iti will try to put everything awayeverything..but still, there were some bit moments today that are sweet and will always be remembered.Girls, i am soo sorry i didnt even jejak kaki at the chalet. It was really tiring for me to travel from one place to another. i have got programmes the whole day. Training and stuffs. Do tell me if there's any way i could make up for it aight. so soorry :(Labels: i'm doomed
Tuesday, March 4, 2008 11:52 PM
different individuals,different strengths and weaknessesthus for me, i should be glad.that i have my own strengths that i could be proud of.something that othersdo not own.nevertheless, weaknesses are the areaswhich needed much improvementand i admit,my spaces of flawsare wide and they come in massesthus your words,they are much appreciatedand they really come in handycause now i realised,i'm my biggest enemyand i shall'nt compare myself to the others around mebut only to me, myself and I.Labels: appreciated
12:01 AM
suprised to see willingness in youforce was never a factor, i hopei believe, love can be expressed and shared through different means. :)Labels: love
Sunday, March 2, 2008 11:26 PM
A day spent with the TPMS at vivocitywe went for lunch,played pool,did some camwhoring,then headed for Ben & Jerry's.i then followed Amal and Ayun to fetch Rai at Cathay.i'm glad having to meet up with them at last.hope to have another successful outing ayte girls
t-P-m-s
aten, me & ayun
risky pose
dessert we had
apart from the fun, i'm missing you. so so much.Labels: TPM outing
12:20 AM
i let myself down,thus let the team downi didn't practice what i preachand i didnt go all out.i lost individually,and thus lost as a team.i gave up,and that was my stupidest mistakeregrets are nothing at the end of it, i just needed improvement in terms of mental strength and speedall this to be a complete playerand for the trainings days to come, i will push harder.it was my worst personal game ever.Labels: weak mentality
